Why does it seem that everything has to pile up at once? I swear it always happens like this, I get overwhelmed and stressed out and then wham, i'm sick. Again. I knew it was coming, this past week was so stressful I could just feel it building up more and more everyday. Then lo and behold Thursday night it hits me with the soreness first, so sore I could barely walk, wth? I didn't do like anything so why can't I walk? Who knows... Then of course I am dreading Friday, how come? Oh only because I had to drive to South of Detroit to shoot a wedding by myself. So knowing my sickness is going to peak in the morning I definitely did not want to go. All in all the drive wasn't that bad, but it was an exhausting day and I over crammed myself with meds and by the end of the day I was so weak and sore all over again. Definitely have changed and do not like taking long drives or mini trips without Ben :( Its just not the same.
On another note I am just really frustrated and feel defeated in ways with photography. I don't want to go into it in detail because I know alot of my photo friends read this and I don't want anyone to think its about them. There's just people who have taken the joy out of it for me and certain events and other things that have just made me take a few steps back. So if budget can allow, I will probably only be booking about 2 or 3 more weddings this summer. I already have some bookings, but that will cut me in half with weddings for next summer. I think that will just make me happier for right now and less stressed when it gets around to this time next year. There's just alot going on with photo stuff right now and its just changed, I have many reasons that have made me feel this way. I still love it my passion and vision hasn't changed its just put things in a different perspective and made me want to make a few changes. So thats that. Things will probably start to change there starting the next year.
Nothing exciting happened this week as far as Married life goes I feel as if I am constantly cleaning the house and there is always piles of laundry to do. It was never like this living with just me (no offense Ben) I would much rather live with him then without him, but seriously how is it so drastic!! I am sure this is a common thing for every newlywed to say and I can hear you Ashley thinking (just wait to you have kids Suz...) So that is another adjustment.
I also picked up some extra shifts this session Coaching at the Y. I really really love it and I hope I am making a difference in those kids lives. I am so excited they have their first competitive meet this weekend!! I can't wait! But back to the point of coaching more, I am now working every week night and its really hard because I am trying to make meals almost every night and so I want to be living for the crockpot but sometimes I just don't get it done on time and I hate not being able to be home and have dinner on the table every night for Ben. I have been getting so many cravings lately to want to make cookies, or oatmeal snacks, or just baking, I think its a fall thing :)
Hopefully I will get on a schedule... Anyone have any good crockpot recipes I need them!! Oh yeah and easy/fast ones.... I never have enough time! Please facebook message them to me!
On the last note....
Reggie needs a bath... its been weeks since he went swimming.
And I am counting down the days to vacation and DISNEY!!!! UGHH I can't wait I desperately need it and I am just excited!
Which leads me to alot of JJ because its so light and tropical :)
Currently Listening to:
Jack Johnson: To The Sea
Only the Ocean ~
And this work is done, And this cold is dry
When this world's too much
It will be only the ocean and me
When these sails go up, Mountanis fade away
Stars come back, I'm finally free
It's only the ocean and me