The Story of Us

The Story of Us

Wednesday, November 12, 2014

1 month

The first month with Olivia was definitely the hardest. I definitely got tired of everyone asking "Isn't this the best? or It's so great isn't it?" ummm no. It's very hard and very exhausting and you don't sleep and most of the time all I wanted to do was lock myself in a room and cry. Yes I did that a lot. She cried and screamed a lot to say the least. There were days I thought it would never end and I desperately needed a break. On the plus side it went fast, I look back now and just think of it as a phase and that its over. Everyday is a new challenge but also a new reward. Olivia was smiling a lot and those first few smiles definitely tear at your heart strings.
~ She learned our voices quickly especially her Daddy's. When Ben would walk into a room she would hear him and turn her head immediately trying to find him.
~ She loves taking baths or showers, they make her really happy and she smiles and laughs the whole time. Olivia definitely has a small laugh but of course no sound yet.
~ Olivia really likes lights and color and observes her flashing lights games.
~ Other then baths to calm Olivia down I walk a lot with her in the Ergo. We will go across the street and walk with Reggie. Most of the time she would instantly fall asleep or she would just stare at the tree tops and the contrast of the leaves and sky.
~ We are amazed at her strength and how she can lift her head and look around already.
~ She has her daddy wrapped around her finger completely :) It melts my heart. 
~ Reggie is very protective of his little sister but still is slightly scared of her I think!

Although it was definitely super hard I wouldn't trade it. I can't imagine life without her and I look forward to watching her grow and develop even more. At this point it has made me change my mind about having future kids but everyone says that will change!  Our hearts are full and she totally rocks our worlds.

Monday, November 10, 2014

Olivia Evea Eller - August 10th, 2014

Here we are, August 9th, 2014 I am in the hospital being induced. I want to make sure we remember certain details for sure. The whole being induced part really sucked to say the least, labor was a nightmare and they say you immediately forget the pain well thats not true at all. I will never forget that or at least the parts I remember, there was definitely parts I was on the verge of unconsciousness to say the least and Ben says those are the parts that are engraved in his mind forever. So lets go over the details.
- The Nurses were AMAZING! We loved them all. 1st nurse was Joy who helped with the beginning our overnight nurse was Kim who got there at my worst and helped through it. Epidural was a nightmare by a lady who Ben almost punched in the face. Once we got upstairs after delivery we had Ashley who was Ben's cousin. Everyone we met was wonderful!
- Ben was my rock, he was always there and absolutely amazing. I will never forget all that he did and I am very proud of myself for never once yelling at him (you always hear those horror stories). I am pretty sure I wanted to give up quite a few times and he kept believing in me.
- Both our parents came and helped out in so many ways. By bringing us emergency supplies, sneaking in food and helping out in every way possible.
- It was a beautiful Sunday morning when Olivia arrived. I remember (after the epidural kicked in at I was alert again) at about 8 0r 9:00 am just looking out the window holding Ben's hand and the sun was shining brightly into our window and I said its a Beautiful morning, sun shining, birds flying, angels singing and God praising, the perfect day for our daughter to arrive.
- Delivery was surreal, amazing, wonderful, magical. There are so many ways to describe it. I remember every detail, every push, every squeeze of Ben's hand, the sun in our window, asking if she had hair coming out, Ben's face and tears, having Ben take her and lay her on my chest and watching her eyes open and stare right at us. She arrived at 10:56 a.m.on Sunday morning August 10th, 2014. There was no crying or screaming she just looked at both of us and snuggled in, she grabbed Ben's finger as we talked to her and were amazed at her beautiful big eyes, perfect lips and breathtaking beauty.We stayed like this for quite a while and I never wanted it to end. It was perfection, the 3 of us.

After awhile our families came in and we announced her name... Olivia Evea Eller. She was weighed at 6lbs. 6oz. and measured at 19 1/4 inches long. Everyone was in love and enraptured by her beautiful eyes that looked around at everyone and observed so well, memorizing faces and hearing voices. Throughout the next few days we had many friends and family visit and Olivia stole everyone's heart.

We went home on Monday and were so excited to get her home. Big mistake!! We should of stayed another night. The whole first night was a complete nightmare with no sleeping and constant crying. Luckily we went to the pediatrician the next day and he helped out tremendously. The first week adjusting was rough but wonderful at the same time, Ben and I being there together everyday and spending time as a new family. We are so blessed beyond words and Ben is the most amazing father. Watching him love on her is the best feeling ever. She has her daddy wrapped around her finger in every way possible, same with the rest of us. She was smiling that first week and stole our hearts even more with that look and those eyes. Reggie was amazing and is constantly watching over his little sister.We couldn't ask for anything more. Olivia changed our world and will forever keep changing our hearts.

Wow! 18 months later and a baby!

There truly is so much to say I don't even know where to start. 18 months is a long time and an unbelievable amount of stuff has happened. The most obvious being I am now a first time mother to the most beautiful, precious little girl. We are over the moon in love with her and it has changed our lives completely. I was horrible about documenting everything throughout the pregnancy and birth so now that she is 10 weeks old I feel like it is long overdue to catch up and write down some memories before I forget everything completely. So let's start at the beginning.

2013 was crazy busy... once gymnastics season started I was working almost every weekend and traveling a lot, which was really fun. I love my job and going to meets with my girls, it just got a little busy being gone so much. I loved it but I missed having a social life and hanging out with our friends on the weekend too. The summer flew by and fall was gone before we knew it. We had been wanting to plan for like 2 years to have a baby but things kept getting pushed back or new plans popped up and the timing never worked out. So we finally decided on planning to try in the fall. Well it didn't take long at all and I'll never forget the moment we found out.  It was Friday night December 6th. I knew it was early and there might be a chance a test wouldn't show but I was too excited and so I stopped at a drugstore on my way home from Grand Rapids (I was at a meet). I got home and told Ben I bought one and that it was early but I still wanted to try. He was making me dinner and I came back into the kitchen and said "Don't let me go back in there and look before time us up" so we waited. Timer went off and we walked back into the bathroom together hand in hand. I left it right there on the counter and sure enough 2 pink lines!! No one said a word and we just looked at each other for a moment and smiled. Then I said something like " This better be for real... or I can't believe it" something along those lines. We hugged and cried and were so happy!  I of course took many more tests over the next few weeks just to make sure!
We wanted to be able to tell our parents for Christmas and we did! It was a wonderful surprise and we made special gifts for each of them and wrapped them up.
Our first appointment was in January and Ben went with me. I was super nervous and just wanted to make sure everything was ok. At that point you can't feel any movement, I just wanted to hear that heartbeat so bad and there it was steady and strong!
Over the next few months everything was great... I am one of the lucky ones to have had a fairly easy pregnancy. I didn't start to feel movement until after about 20 weeks and we had our 20 week appointment on April 4th before we set off on Spring Break to Branson. We were so excited to find out what it was and FINALLY be able to shop for her. Yes her, our beautiful little girl.
Time flew by after that I finished up my gymnastics season and Dance Recital pics. Once June hit it was nice to relax a little and I had a few baby showers and spent time with friends. By the middle of July I was definitely feeling it worse and worse as I am sure everyone does. At 37 weeks I was really sick and  had bronchitis and a bad sinus infection. All the coughing spurred on contractions and we went to the hospital. They didn't want to induce me till at least 38 weeks so I was sent home on bed rest and medicine. At 37 & 38 week appointments my blood pressure was really high and I went in a few times each week in those 2 weeks to be monitored for lack of movement and high blood pressure. On Thursday of my 38th week I had my last appointment with my OB and she said she was on call all weekend so if my blood pressure stayed high I needed to let her know. So by Saturday we were monitor my blood pressure at home and it had stayed steadily high so I called and she said come on in to labor and delivery. So we went in on Saturday, August 9th, they decided to induce me that evening and the story begins. So now we are on to the whole labor & delivery.

Friday, April 19, 2013

Spring Break Road Trip

So a few days after Easter and a week after my surgery, it was my spring break at work so I wanted to at least take a day and go visit my nieces since I hadn't seen them since Christmas. Since I was feeling pretty good it ended up working out where I could take a few days off.  So on Tuesday, Dad and I traveled to my brothers house and got there in the late morning. I was so excited that we made it there before Rylie got off the bus and I got to run out and meet her. It was so awesome to have her step off the bus and run into my arms so excited! I love that feeling.  Dad and I took the girls on a walk to the playground and we spent a while playing there with them. We spent the day hanging out with the girls and after putting them down for a nap I definitely needed one for myself.  The long drive and playing with them was a lot more then I had done for over a week so I was exhausted.  That evening we went to dinner and Rylie went with us to Bass Pro for a quick errand. We got to look at all the fish in the big fish tank again. It was a fun little time just the two of us. 
The next morning we got up early and I got to walk Rylie to her bus stop again and said goodbye to her and sent her off to school. Dad and I got ready to leave and when we were leaving Ellie got really sad because she wanted to go with us to see her Uncle Ben. She loves her uncle Ben and carries around pictures of him with her and she was so sad that we came without him and then that we were leaving to go see him.
So dad and I headed out and drove up to Wisconsin to visit maranatha Deb.  I haven't seen her and her baby Wes since summer right after he was born, so I was so excited to go visit them! Deb always talks about her town and their house and so it was really fun to visit her there and see her new home and now I can picture it when they talk about boating out on their lake! It was really fun seeing little Wes again too and just sitting down and catching up and talking to one of my best friends ever. I love that no matter how much time has passed since we have seen each other or talked we always just pick up where we left off and its completely normal. I cherish my friends like that and she has been one of my longest friendships and its truly wonderful to know it will be lifelong. Little Wes completely took my dad and it was really funny watching him just stare at dad the whole time.  I was really glad we got to visit and the whole day was a lot of fun. 
After we left Deb we headed north to Green Bay to make a stop by Lambeau field of course! Dad and I hadn't seen it years and so it was a special moment revisiting it together and walking around. We didn't get in to see the field but the whole new stadium and shops and restaurants is really cool and we just spent a little time exploring.  From there we continued on into the UP and made it to Escanaba. The next morning we got up early and did a quick drive around Escanaba and then continued on the way across the UP. Not too long after we started driving we hit a massive snow storm! Seriously! It was like 55 degrees down in Muskegon and yet we were driving through pouring snow! We made it Tahquamenon Falls and the snow almost stopped for us thankfully. Dad and I trekked down the paths with like 3 feet of snow on the ground and finally made it and what a breathtaking picture it was! I have never seen waterfalls in the winter where they are partially frozen and with humongous icicles handing. There really are no words to describe it. I am so glad I got to experience that and hopefully I will see something like it again. Dad and I made it across a snow blowing Mackinaw Bridge and into the city for a bite to eat. The snow didn't stop till almost to Cadillac and then we finally saw some sunshine.
It was a wonderful mini break and another fun, spontaneous trip with my dad.  So many more great pictures to add to the collection!


Rylie and I at Bass Pro

At the fish aquarium 






 Can you see all the icicles?


 A snowy blizzard on the bridge

Easter

So since I was in recovery from my surgery I did have all my family up here for the weekend.  On Friday Grandma and I made some Easter sugar cookies with carrots, bunnies, flowers and egg shaped cut outs.  The weekend before we did colored eggs with Bens family. So we got into the Easter spirit this year with fun activities. On Sunday my family joined us at church and then we came back home and had a Easter brunch with my family and then went to Bens parents house for Easter dinner that evening.  Here is some pictures of Grandma and my cookies.

Decisions

Part of the reason I have been lacking in my recent posts and am now just catching up is because I feel everything going on lately has caught up with me and for the first time since my surgery.  I came home last night with a fever, sore throat and strong ear ache. I immediately came in and took a bath and then had some soup and went to bed to rest up. I have a huge important day tomorrow shooting a dance studio and I really want to feel good. I think the past few weeks have been a blur and stressful in our personal life and also working hard at work for our home meet.  Last weekend we hosted another home gymnastics meet and it was a bug success for us again.  It is really awesome for my girls to perform for a full gym of their parents, grandparents, friends and community. It was a lot of work but I am glad it turned out so well. 
At home Ben and I have had a eventful few weeks of interviews and deciding whats best for him and for us for the future. He has been working on applying for jobs to further his career and it has been a lot of decisions and long, lengthy discussions about what is best for us. So of course it has been weighing on my shoulders heavily what to do. I find myself praying constantly through out the day for guidance and trust and for a sign to know what is the right decision.  I know that no matter what happens we will work through it and I couldn't do anything without Ben by my side and I just want him to be happy with his career. No one enjoys a job where your not happy or satisfied and that is really important to me for him to have. So prayers for us that everything happens for a reason and that we trust that we are on the right path. Hopefully everything smooths out soon and we know what our plans are.
As for photography it is now officially my busy season! Tomorrow is the first of the big 3 big jobs I have until mid May. Not only the day of shooting but all the after work of editing, sorting, ordering, packaging and everything else. I always say a big Goodbye to everyone even my Husband during this time because every spare minute is spent on my computer. I tell people I don't have a life from April to June and its so true.  So here goes to another season, hopefully its very successful and less stressful!

Surgery

I realize I really need to stop starting off with the same line everytime that "I am really late in writing this post".  I feel that the last few weeks have been a blur of choas.  So there is definitely a lot to catch up on. I will start with my surgery.

So Tuesday morning the 26th of March, Ben and I went into the hospital at about 10:00 am. ( I think) and we got registered and our Pastor came and met with us and talked for a bit and had some prayer time, which we really appreciated. After that I went into pre-surgery and had to change into the lovely gown and get hooked up to the IV. Ben's mom and dad got there shortly after that to visit for awhile and stay with Ben while I was in surgery, which really meant a lot to Ben and I. Then my doctor and the anesthesiologist came in to go over everything.  Then I said my goodbyes and got wheeled away into surgery. Once I got into the surgical room it was really cold and the nurse was sticking those circle things which were even colder onto my skin and the anesthesiologist was talking to me but didn't give me a countdown or anything just talking and so the next thing I knew I was waking up a little confused in a room. I was in there just a nurse and I for a little bit while she asked me a few questions to make sure I was coherent. I was asked about how much pain I was in and if they gave me the pain medication in there ( I think through the IV) then I would need to stay there a while longer but if I wanted to see Ben I could wait and take pain medication later. Of course I wanted to see Ben as soon as possible so I said I would wait. So they took me to the outpatient room where I met Ben and my mother in law. They had gone to get some lunch from the cafeteria and then wait for the doctor to let them know how the surgery went. Ben said it was really nice having his mom there with him and just spending time just the two of them together and it meant a lot to him. So I was really glad for that that she was there for both of us. Once there in outpatient I was given some juice and crackers and they showed Ben how to change my mustache bandages so the drainage and bleeding catches on the gauze. I definitely still felt a little out of it and was starting to feel a little more pain so I got some medicine in me and then they pulled the big, long packing out of nose and that was the worse part. I seriously thought they were pulling my brains out, it was so painful. After that I definitely felt the pain a lot more.
Next Ben and I headed home and I stayed in bed resting while he went to the pharmacy to pick up my meds. The rest of the day I was still pretty groggy and out of it but the pain was bearable. I also had my mustache gauze on and changed it a few times and by late evening I was feeling better and hungry so I had some soup and crackers.  I had to sleep propped up a lot but I slept better then I expected so that felt better.  I was glad to have Ben home with me for another day and it was fun just to be together even though I wasn't at my best obviously. But we just laid on the couch all day watching tv and movies.
On Thursday my mom, dad and grandma came up to spend the long weekend and Ben returned to work, so that way I had someone with me for the first few days. It had been awhile since I had spent time with them so it was nice to have them there.
Basically the next few days was just spent resting and taking it easy. I definitely did better then I or anyone else expected. I thought I would be in more pain and more bleeding but it was much better then that. Of course it wasn't a fun experience but I think with all the prayers that got sent my way it was a faster healing process and I am so thankful for that. With all the love and support and endless amount or prayer angels I had, I am really grateful for every ones help and prayer I had over the whole process.

Monday, March 25, 2013

Guns and Dye

Yes I purposefully spelled the title that way. This was definitely an eventful weekend! Saturday morning was another important step in our lives. Not sure again what direction we are heading with it but the morning was a little chaotic and nerve wracking. After that I had a Gymnastics meet in Zeeland with my girls. It was a really great meet, everyone did well again and we had about 20 girls competing this time. 
Once the meet was over I headed to GR where I met Ben and my in laws at the NEW CABELA'S!! So excited there is one close by. Of course it was packed but it was still cool to see it and be there opening weekend. Then we stopped at the mall and did some quick shopping and found Ben some tennis shoes and then headed over to Gander Mountain. Well that turned into an unexpected extra long trip. I ended up buying my very first GUN! Like officially mine! It was definitely spur of the moment and we had talked about getting one for me that I am more comfortable with. Well we found one perfect for me and we couldn't pass it up because of the incredible price! So we got it and now I have my own gun. Officially. Its a big exciting step for me! Yesterday we went out in the afternoon and shot it a few times. Not a lot cuz we can't find ammo anywhere but enough for us to just try it out. I can't wait to practice more!
So the other end of the title is cuz we spent last night with the Easter Egg dye. Ben, Michael and I did a dozen eggs and had fun dyeing and decorating them. I haven't done that in years or longer so it was a lot of fun. I am hoping we can try it again later this week with Grandma. At the end I decided to dip my hair in the dye and see if I could turn up with some purple or pink strands but apparently egg dye doesn't work the same way cuz it didn't turn out. Oh well. I was just wanting some pastel tips for the Easter Holiday :) 
In other news, tomorrow is my sinus surgery and now that it is almost here I am anxious.I am just hoping and praying that it actually works and makes a difference and I don't have to spend 8months of the year on antibiotics and no more dealing with all these sinus infections.I hope its a least a little better and not worth the surgery for nothing. We have to be there at 10 tomorrow and the surgery is at 12. So I probably won't be updating for a few days but I will have some facebook updates and probably a post by the weekend to write down everything that happened!
Wish me luck and keep me in your prayers tomorrow! It will be a long day! 





Friday, March 22, 2013

March Madness

That seems an appropriate title for how I am feeling. Honestly I am through with March and am looking very much forward to April. Not that anything bad happened just that it was so crazy, I had quite a few gymnastics meets on weekends and then of course being sick again. I got another infection and its like an endless cycle.
Let's see, Ben and I did have quite a few fun dates since my last post and I love our weekends we get to spend together. Sometimes it is only one full day we get together but its what I look forward to every week. We went to the circus, skiing, dinners out, movies and video games.Even if its staying in those are the best moments of the week. Its been hectic to say the least but we both have personal stuff going on and we are working together to figure out future plans, jobs,our lives and its at one of those times where things are happening we are just not sure what yet. I feel my spare moments like when I wake up, driving in the truck, in the shower, cooking, has all been spent in prayers just for guidance on what path our lives need to take. Its exciting and stinks at the same time being a grown up!  Also on the agenda, next week I am having surgery on my sinuses so I will be down and out for a week or two. We are hoping that this makes things better in the long run because lets be honest no one likes being on antibiotics 8 months out of the year. Definitely not me. That is happening on Tuesday and Ben will be home with me for a few days and then my family is coming up for the rest of the week and for Easter. Then the following week is my spring break at work which is why I am having the surgery now but hopefully if I am feeling better by the end of that second week I can go visit my nieces and some friends near Chicago. But we will just see how the surgery goes.  So that is our upcoming plans. Even though having the surgery will be very painful and miserable, I am looking forward to a few days of nothing and just being home alone with my husband. Hopefully I am can enjoy that a little bit.
Guess thats all thats going on and nothing else exciting. I will post when we have more news or maybe on my down time in the next few weeks.






Thursday, February 21, 2013

A Blog of Mess

There has been so much to say these last few weeks and I have been waiting for the time to sit down and get them all out. Well now seems to be the best time since my computer is currently being broken a part again in the computer shop while I sit at home stressing about it and missing days of editing work and falling more behind in work. AGHH!! It's as if my computer knows when I have big editing projects to work on and it seems to crash on me. I am having storage issues, apparently I take too many pictures or something and it then it clogs up computer. Or something I guess. Well even my back up hard drive got fried this time so I spent the last few days stressing if I am going to lose certain projects. Well so far its looking good but I still won't get it back till at the earlier tomorrow. So next week will be spent trying to hard to catch up on picture editing.
On other news I am most likely heading into surgery the end of March. I saw an ENT about all my sinus infections and looks like nasal surgery is in my future. So there is that to look for forward too. Not.

Now onto February news. The first weekend I headed to MSU with my girls to coach. It was a super fun weekend! We went over on Friday night and stayed in a hotel and went to the Women's MSU gymnastics meet and cheered them on. It was really fun and reminded me of when my girls from highschool and I used to go to UofM on the weekends and watch the gymnastics teams. After the meet I sat poolside with some moms and watched all of our girls having a blast in the pool. The next day we got up early and headed to Jenison Fieldhouse for the competition. I was so proud of them as I always am but it was really cool to watch their excitement at competeing at Michigan State and the other awesome thing was they all got new pink leotards. I like seeing them wearing them all around the gym. Those pictures are definitely on the list of things I need to go through when my computer gets back. The weekend only slightly got ruined by being around all those kids too much by getting a bit of the flu for a few days. Been a very long time since I threw up that much.

I think the following weekend we didn't do much, Ben and I went to a movie and hung out together. Always like our weekends and quality time spent together.

Then there was Valentines Day, my parents and Grandma came up to see us for a few days and it was nice since they haven't been up and spent time together since Christmas.  I came home to pink roses from my husband and chocalates from my family.  They stayed until Saturday morning so Ben and I could celebrate our own Valentines day since we both worked all day on Thursday. So even though it was a blizzard outside we decided to head out on our own adventure. We drove to Holland and decided to visit a few gun and archery shops that Ben had been wanting to go too. Just looked around and spent time together and then ate an early dinner at the New Holland Brewing Company right downtown. We always love trying new places together and its another town and place to definitely go back to again.  We got back early and just hung out at home and watched a movie and played games and it was another wonderful day to spend together.
I feel like so much is going on with our lives during the week and sometimes weekends that when we do get to spend full days together, we create a lot of new memories and gives us moments to look forward to for the next day we get to do that again.  Like this weekend we are going to meet up with friends at Crystal Mountan and spend the day together. I will once again try my hand at skiing and hope it goes better then snowboarding. I desperately want to be good at one of them so I don't hold people back and everyone can enjoy themselves. I just want to be normal and stop falling down all the time!! Well hopefully I will have my computer back and get caught up so I can blog about that. And surely have a few pictures as well. I can't take so long in between blogs especially with so much information to share.